I discover I’m not lost–I’m right where I’m supposed to be.
Awhile back, I wrote about a coaching session I had with longtime friend and life coach Quinn McDonald, of http://www.QuinnCreative.com. (I’m leaving out the links because WordPress does not seem to want to process my html coding today.)
During that session, I mentioned my odd desire to sign up for hospice training. Quinn said she didn’t think it was at all odd. After we’d talked, she said I was asking myself, “what are the values that are calling to you to be fulfilled in your life?” They’ve changed since I first started my journey as an artist. No better place to search for them, she said, than to look at what happens at the end of life.
I told a few people about my decision.
Some people said, “Oh, you’d be great at hospice!” I loved their support and faith, but I cautioned them, “I’m not even sure why I’m doing this! But for sure it’s not because I necessarily think I’ll excel at it. I just feel I have to do this.”
Some people pooh-poohed it, or looked at me like I’d given in to the woo-woo thing.
Other people I knew I couldn’t tell.
And most of the time, I just knew I shouldn’t talk about it too much. Sometimes, talking about doing something takes all the energy out of it. Like your brain mistakes the “talking” for the actual “doing.
So I just needed to do it.
Today was my first training session.
It was powerful.
It was amazing.
I cried like a girl. (Well, I am a girl, so that’s okay.)
I haven’t even begun to process everything that happened. And maybe I shouldn’t, for awhile, anyway.
I will say this:
When I first felt the desire to pursue this, I had no idea why. It felt irrational, crazy and self-indulgent.
But now, there is no doubt in my mind anymore.
I KNOW that this….
…this is exactly where I need to be right now.
It is exactly the right place for me to be.
That feeling alone is enough to make my spirit soar for the first time in ages.
I don’t really know much more than that right now. I’m just telling you, so if you have any odd urges or yearnings right now, it might behoove you to check them out.
And yes, behoove is a word.